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Monday, March 19, 2007

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 15:28:18 GMT

"If your love was all I had in this life, that would be enough until the end of time"
-Justin Timberlake

That's such a good Cd! Anyway, hey ya'll! There has been soooooooooooooooooo much going on with me lately, both good and bad. I will have to come back later and discuss that, but I am not going to go into too much detail...just kind of like a summary. School is going pretty well...we have a Medicinal Chem test tomorrow and I'm nerovus about it. I'm just ready for spring to come so the weather will be nice and for summer so I can have a break. Be back later...love ya'll!! Lata babes.

Jia

Monday, February 26, 2007

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 03:16:12 GMT

"...no you don't mean nothing at all to me..."
-Nelly Furtado

I'm really beginning to grow indifferent to a certain someone. When I do that you're just about done in my book. I had one of the worst weekends ever...too much drama to even begin to discuss. Can't wait to just have a break. Pray for me and I'll do the same...

Jia

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 23:44:15 GMT

"Broke dudes only make jokes funny..."
-Weezy F. Baby

Hey ya'll! You're listening to Glamorous by Fergie and Luda. I love this song! Just a quick update. Everything is going pretty well. School is ok...Pharmacy school is no joke. I'm always so tired, but it's worth it. No valentine tomorrow...my daddy definitely sent me flowers...lol. I'm becoming content with being single. More time to work on me and realize what I don't want. It's cool...my friend Jonesy is coming this weekend, so I'll probably post about that after he leaves on Sunday! Lata babes...

Jia

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 00:42:37 GMT

"I'll fill your space and forget your face I swear I will"
-T.I. My Love

Hey ya'll! Well this semester feels like it has been going on forever and it's only day 2 of classes. I'm really not about to have a life for the next 4 months and it's crazy!!! I only have 4 classes...Medicinal Chemistry, Pharmaceutics w/ Lab, Biostatistics & Epidemiology, and Pharmaceutical Care. I have classes every day, but on Fridays we get out early which is good because I have to finish my training for Walgreen's.

It's funny...this semester we get out super early and that would have been great if I were still talking to Marcus. Over the break we planned to spend some weekends in Charlotte since that was the middle point for us both, but seeing as though we're not even speaking that's a negative. We got back together over the break and broke up because he told me that he wasn't getting what he needed from me physically (I'm still saving myself)...so basically he broke up with me so he could go have sex. I was done begging at that point and I didn't even put up a fight this time...I thought that was so lame...so we're on shaky terms. I mean we spoke on Saturday when I was driving back to school and he was like "you haven't called me in forever" and I was just like why would I want to talk to you and you broke up with me for some b.s. So then I asked him if he had sex yet and he started laughing and said no...so I know he's lying because I know him. Niggas! Ok...I'm not with that...but such is so and this is my life. Ya'll have a great semester!!! lata babes...

Jia

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 22:59:58 GMT

"C if I give a fuck if you like me you know I don't"
-Andre 3000 Hollywood Divorce

Happy new year ya'll!!! I cannot believe that it's 2007. 2006 was good to me...2006 was bad to me. I mean it was filled with ups and downs. I learned several hard personal lessons which I choose not to go into at this point in time. But I have made note, learned, and moved on. Christmas was good...I got a ring from Tiffany's (my fav store EVER) and some perfume...Clinique Happy Heart. I also got to spend time with the fam which was good. My first semester of Pharmacy school went really well and I'm super pleased with my grades and myself.

Onto something else. My year got off to a kind of bad start, but only because I allowed it to be that way. And ya'll know who was the reason behind that...my ex...Marcus. Now Lord knows I love this boy, but Lord knows I'm not supposed to be with him now. My heart has been broken into so many pieces due to his broken promises and just his lack of not being there for me, especially in my times of need. He and I have such a turbulent (sp.) past and it's not looking much better for the future. As much as I hate to say that I am done with him...it's hard not to...it's a new year...which hopefully means new oppourtunities. Last night I was thinking to myself...I lead such an amazing life. I mean I have great family and friends, an amazing house, an amazing car, a bright future, intelligent, and I have so many people who support me. And I realized something was missing.

Everyone is always telling me to be patient and I know what's missing. I don't want to get into it because it confuses the hell out of me. When I think about all the guys I talked to in 2006 besides Marcus, I have seen that all of those situations did not end up good. Either the guy was still involved with a crazy baby's mama, wasn't ready to settle down, or just wasn't interested. I mean thats cool if someone's not interested because there are plenty of times when I'm not interested, but it confuses me as to why I always seem to attract the crazies, losers, and men with no ambition. It's really discouraging especially when I see my people in good and solid relationships....I mean yea I'm only 19, but I want to be married by a certain age and I definitely want to be in a committed relationship by the time I graduate from Pharmacy school. ugh, I just don't know what to do...oooh wll. I'm hoping this year proves to be such a great one. Hope ya'll all have a wonderful year as well...lata babes!!!

Jia

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 21:03:50 GMT

Do you ever feel like your family is trying to keep the details of something from you to protect you? What they don't realize is that it causes more damage by them not being 100% honest....that's what I feel like is going on now with my gramma and her sickness. My mother is being really strange when I try to talk to her about it and it's freaking me out. I feel like screaming, but I can't because I have to keep it together. Omg...I really need someone to talk to...I'm so overwhelmed and reaaaaaaaally scared...keep me in your prayers ya'll....love you!...lata babes.

Jia

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 00:38:25 GMT

"I make it rain on them hoes"
-Lil Wayne

Lol....I love that song!!! It's like keep doing your thing despite haters and bad people!! I have been doing that lately. lol...Thanksgiving was super amazing! It's crunch time now...I have tests all this week and all next week and the following week is finals. Good luck to all of ya'll.

Thanks so much to all of ya'll who are praying for me and my family...love you all!!! gotta go study...oooh and why last night I was talking to Marcus and he said he was thinking about how to propose to me. Lol...I just laughed...we're friends and we're working on our friendship. Nothing new is going on in my love life. I did get a job at Walgreen's as a Pharmacy intern. I mean it's cool, but I don't want to go into retail....oh well. Lata babes...

"Better grab an umbrella...I make it rain on them hoes..."

Jia

Friday, November 10, 2006

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 00:37:38 GMT

"In all things give thanks..."
-Mommy

Hey ya'll. Man oh man...so much has happened in the past week. Ya'll know the show Best Week Ever...well I swear I had the worst week ever last week.

-I caught a really bad cold...lost my voice and everything.
-Some b!tches keyed my car...not a big deal right...ummm no...I haven't had my car for 3 months...it is a 2006 VW Jetta...clearly my car was brand new. I have an idea of who did it...but I mean oh well, karma is something.
-Last weekend...I found out some awful news in the most awful way. I went to SC to visit my fam and to go to homecoming at SC State. I found out that my grandmother's cancer returned for a 3rd time. The way I found out was crazy...my gramma was supposed to tell my cousins and I together, but at the game someone else thought that I knew and started talking to me about it and needless to say I fell apart. I mean the way I found out I just felt like I was hit with a ton of bricks because my family means EVERYTHING to me. It's like with all the other drama going on..I knew I couldn't worry about dumb females keying my car or being sick...I just wish I were there with my gramma. It's hard being at school by myself because I am dealing with so much and I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. I mean everyone is busy with their own lives and the last thing I want to do is bother them with my problems...so I'm dealing.

Which brings me to the next point. The person who I thought should/would be there for me in my worst hour...isn't. Marcus is once again showing his behind and it hurts. Because he knows how hard this is for me and he's not there. This happened before, my freshman year and he was amazing. I think I'm expecting too much out of someone who has served his purpose in my life. They say some people are only in our lives for seasons and when it's time for them to be gone...don't hold on. That's the problem I'm having because I don't want to be alone. I know when he and I stop talking it'll just be me and my work...and I feel like right now the only thing I have going is Pharmacy School and DST. I'm also beginning to realize that I'm destined to continuously meet Mr. Wrongs, but clearly that is irrelevant at this point in my life since so much other stuff is going on. ok...please keep me in ya'lls prayers...I really need it. I'm trying to stay positive and keep the faith...but it's really...really...really hard. Lata babes...

Jia

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 20:54:10 GMT

"God don't make no mistakes"
-Andre 3000

Man oh man...what a weekend!! It was homecoming here, but I had to go home for a funeral. One of the Deacons from my church passed away...it was a total shock and yesterday was so emotionally draining. When I was going through so much drama last semester and ever since I've been in school he's been totally supportive of me and continued to support me. He always told me to stand for what was right even though I may often stand alone. He will truly be missed....R.I.P. Deacon Green.

Going home was a nightmare. My flight was supposed to leave at 5:15....I didn't get home until midnight. There was bad weather in ATL and Norfolk and they clearly lost my bag. I had to rough it on Friday night and woke up early Saturday morning to go and get my bag. Besides the funeral, I went to eat with my parents and got to get a replacement phone from Verizon (thank God) because my phone was definitely on its last leg. I can't wait until the 16th of December though because that's when I can get whatever I want. There were some fine guys in there too. Lol.

I think my crush on the guy from the last entry is fading because he clearly pays me no attention. It's crazy how when I go home I get attention, but when I'm at school I'm just regular old me. I talked to Marcus alot this past weekend and I know it may not be the best thing because he thinks we're getting back together. I mean of course we'll always be friends and he'll always be special to me, I need to spread my wings and see what else is out there. I'm sick of being shy, predictable Jia. I told my LS that I was going to start going after what I wanted and stop being so scary. She was basically like it's about time. ahahahaa...ok I need to study for my Pharmaceutics test. PLease keep me in your continuous prayers because I am a work in progress...I will do the same for ya'll!!! Lata babes...

Jia

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 22:22:04 GMT

"Don't ever live with regrets because at one point in time that was exactly what you wanted"
b.dot. woods

Hey ya'll!!! How's everyone? 1st I have to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my brother Bumpy!! He's 18 today! I love him and miss him sooo much.

School has been going pretty well. I am so happy that I'm a Pharmacy major. Pharmacy school is definitely not easy, but I love the fact that I'm on my grind and doing well. Marcus' birthday was on Monday...I called him to wish him happy birthday and wouldn't you know this dude is blowing up my phone now talking about how he misses me. ummm UPGRADE MY LIFE. I definitely am glad I ended that situation...I mean we'll always be cool, but no more getting back together. It's funny because I think he thinks I'm miserable without him. Ummmm no.

"Ain't no problem you can go I will find somebody else, so why not move along...you want a green light so you can go"
Beyonce

I feel like to little high schooler...I have a crush on a boy...something I haven't had in forever but it's not a big deal because I don't think...noooo I know he's not interested in me. ...lol this is beginning to be the story of my life. It's funny though, this time I'm not even tripping because he's such a sweet guy, I just wish I was like his type. Well I don't know what his type is...but w/e. I'm so glad the weekend is here and Grey's Anatomy & ER come on tonight. Yaaaay. Ok...I'm out...ya'll be safe!!! lata babes.

Jia