"If your love was all I had in this life, that would be enough until the end of time"
-Justin Timberlake

That's such a good Cd!  Anyway, hey ya'll!  There has been soooooooooooooooooo much going on with me lately, both good and bad.  I will have to come back later and discuss that, but I am not going to go into too much detail...just kind of like a summary.  School is going pretty well...we have a Medicinal Chem test tomorrow and I'm nerovus about it.  I'm just ready for spring to come so the weather will be nice and for summer so I can have a break.  Be back later...love ya'll!!  Lata babes. 

Jia

"...no you don't mean nothing at all to me..."
-Nelly Furtado

I'm really beginning to grow indifferent to a certain someone.  When I do that you're just about done in my book.  I had one of the worst weekends ever...too much drama to even begin to discuss.  Can't wait to just have a break.  Pray for me and I'll do the same...

Jia

"Broke dudes only make jokes funny..."
-Weezy F. Baby

Hey ya'll!  You're listening to Glamorous by Fergie and Luda.  I love this song!  Just a quick update.  Everything is going pretty well.  School is ok...Pharmacy school is no joke.  I'm always so tired, but it's worth it.  No valentine tomorrow...my daddy definitely sent me flowers...lol.  I'm becoming content with being single.  More time to work on me and realize what I don't want.  It's cool...my friend Jonesy is coming this weekend, so I'll probably post about that after he leaves on Sunday!  Lata babes...

Jia

"I'll fill your space and forget your face I swear I will"
-T.I. My Love

Hey ya'll!  Well this semester feels like it has been going on forever and it's only day 2 of classes.  I'm really not about to have a life for the next 4 months and it's crazy!!!  I only have 4 classes...Medicinal Chemistry, Pharmaceutics w/ Lab, Biostatistics & Epidemiology, and Pharmaceutical Care.  I have classes every day, but on Fridays we get out early which is good because I have to finish my training for Walgreen's. 

It's funny...this semester we get out super early and that would have been great if I were still talking to Marcus.  Over the break we planned to spend some weekends in Charlotte since that was the middle point for us both, but seeing as though we're not even speaking that's a negative.  We got back together over the break and broke up because he told me that he wasn't getting what he needed from me physically (I'm still saving myself)...so basically he broke up with me so he could go have sex.  I was done begging at that point and I didn't even put up a fight this time...I thought that was so lame...so we're on shaky terms.  I mean we spoke on Saturday when I was driving back to school and he was like "you haven't called me in forever" and I was just like why would I want to talk to you and you broke up with me for some b.s.  So then I asked him if he had sex yet and he started laughing and said no...so I know he's lying because I know him.  Niggas!  Ok...I'm not with that...but such is so and this is my life.  Ya'll have a great semester!!!  lata babes...

Jia

"C if I give a fuck if you like me you know I don't"
-Andre 3000 Hollywood Divorce

Happy new year ya'll!!!  I cannot believe that it's 2007.  2006 was good to me...2006 was bad to me.  I mean it was filled with ups and downs.  I learned several hard personal lessons which I choose not to go into at this point in time.  But I have made note, learned, and moved on.  Christmas was good...I got a ring from Tiffany's (my fav store EVER) and some perfume...Clinique Happy Heart.  I also got to spend time with the fam which was good.  My first semester of Pharmacy school went really well and I'm super pleased with my grades and myself.

Onto something else.  My year got off to a kind of bad start, but only because I allowed it to be that way.  And ya'll know who was the reason behind that...my ex...Marcus.  Now Lord knows I love this boy, but Lord knows I'm not supposed to be with him now.  My heart has been broken into so many pieces due to his broken promises and just his lack of not being there for me, especially in my times of need.  He and I have such a turbulent (sp.) past and it's not looking much better for the future.  As much as I hate to say that I am done with him...it's hard not to...it's a new year...which hopefully means new oppourtunities.  Last night I was thinking to myself...I lead such an amazing life.  I mean I have great family and friends, an amazing house, an amazing car, a bright future, intelligent, and I have so many people who support me.  And I realized something was missing.

Everyone is always telling me to be patient and I know what's missing.  I don't want to get into it because it confuses the hell out of me.  When I think about all the guys I talked to in 2006 besides Marcus, I have seen that all of those situations did not end up good.  Either the guy was still involved with a crazy baby's mama, wasn't ready to settle down, or just wasn't interested.  I mean thats cool if someone's not interested because there are plenty of times when I'm not interested, but it confuses me as to why I always seem to attract the crazies, losers, and men with no ambition.  It's really discouraging especially when I see my people in good and solid relationships....I mean yea I'm only 19, but I want to be married by a certain age and I definitely want to be in a committed relationship by the time I graduate from Pharmacy school.  ugh, I just don't know what to do...oooh wll.  I'm hoping this year proves to be such a great one.  Hope ya'll all have a wonderful year as well...lata babes!!! 

Jia